Ordinary!

You wanna hear a story? Lemme tell u one!

It's effing last of October and I am wearing an olive green sweatshirt sitting right next to a heater. Heater? Yeah, you heard that right, it's been days since I have seen the sun. I wake up, grab my tea, sit beside a window and sip it till the last drop. And you know what? I have always heard music is an escape. But today I feel it, I feel it when I listen to it, talking about how I am going through a midlife crisis (probably). Not everyone is the same, not everyone wants to be mainstream, not everyone wants that house, that shiny black car, and those AirPods. All I want is to be at some place, where I sit and think about faces who never thought what they have been doing to me, how they nag me and it breaks me from inside. Lay down on a dew-laden grass, trying to live my dream of being a photographer and catch some exquisite pictures all the way around. That one day, when I relax on my wooden chair, the sweet smell of baking cake comes exactly it was shown in Tom and Jerry. I hope u remember Tom and Jerry at least!

I will one day then, sip wine under a moonlit sky, counting on people I have had, I have left, those who left me, those who still want to be there...but no! I choose to choose myself over anyone and everyone. For me life has been ordinary, I chose ordinary, life gave me ordinarily, and now when I am in love with ordinary. It's too hard for me to start liking extraordinary people, places, and food.

Ohh wait, I have been sitting too long next to the heater. My knees are literally on fire and so is my pen. I would want to write more but the cooker has just whistled, the ordinary food is ready. It's going to be more gloomy today, so I have made my food in bulk. The past few weeks have been quite static or say ordinary. What if I am different? What if I have accessed myself right? What do people like me end up doing? Do they pay the price of being different? Or do they become legends? Do they shed their innate wanting to be with someone? Do they leave their possessions and leave to mountains? Do they pay price for not being mainstream? Do they really have to? What if they are behind a higher purpose in life?

Love is all u need in life? Ain't that so? Is love really restricted to being able to love humans and get expectations in return?

Ahh! Too many questions at a time.

A deep sigh will bring my thoughts to zero and be in present. I don't want to do that. It's been ages since I have been in this zone of mine and I want it to stay and be ordinary for me. See ordinary ain't always bad. Wanting something and making it ordinary, basic is sometimes too good to relish upon.

The food smells good, the sun is warm and ordinary, lemme eat and be right back... I'll tell u more stories later. Lemme enjoy this ordinary for now.....and forever!